Yes, I am a Reiki Master, yes, I give myself Reiki healing daily, and yes, I still have MS. Each morning, I get up and start the coffee. Then I reach into the refrigerator and get out my injection for that day. I get asked if I've taken my shot yet today and then I get reminded that I haven't "healed" myself yet in case I get any big ideas about not giving myself a shot that day.
Ah, but I think that there is more to healing than tests that come back as "normal". My injections leave site reactions, bruises and hard red areas. The injection sites itch at times and though I move the areas around as much as possible, my upper thighs and my stomach have taken a beating over the years. So I haven't healed myself of MS. I do manage to make my bruises go away in a day. I do manage to make the site reactions less than they used to be. I heal myself in small ways. A miracle would be nice, but it isn't necessary.
I have always had empathy for others. I have even more now than I did before. When you come to me and the tears start to fall because you are just tired of being sick, I've been there before. I've cried and had others hold me as I was so tired of being sick and I wanted it to just "go away". When you discuss the need to plan ahead for trips because medications have to be dealt with, I understand that. I still do that as my medication has to be refrigerated. When you say "I just want to be normal again", I have had those same thoughts run through my head.
Really though, what is normal? I have had an interesting progression with MS. I've been through the steroids, the IVs, the every other day injection, the once a week injection (that one came with a band aid, never a good thing), and now the daily injection. If you were to meet me in person today, you would never know that has been, and still is, a part of my life unless I choose to tell you. This is my normal and I have actually learned to embrace my normal. If it had been any other way, my life would be completely different at this time. I would have taken a different route and it might have taken me that much longer to come to where I am now.
Working with energy, giving to others, gives me a sense of peace that makes my life complete. To be able to see a Client feel better before my eyes, to feel their spirit slowly find peace, heals me. I can't explain it, but I have actually thanked the Universe for MS. It sent me on a different path than the one that I was following, one that has led me to the place that I am today. Looking back, I can pick out certain events that sent me in a different direction than the one that I was currently on. In each case, it was one more turn to get me to where I am today.
I have no regrets in my life. Each step of the way that may have been seen as something to bemoan, in truth gave me something to feel blessed over. I have had a few struggles, don't get me wrong, but I have learned from them all and I don't think that I would do any part of it any differently. Hind sight is 20/20, but for me it just brings clarity to the reasons behind it.
Life is what you make it and it truly is your choice on how you want to live it. I keep this on my bulletin board to remind me of this small fact: "We who lived in concentration camps can remember the men who walked through the huts comforting others, giving away their last piece of bread. They may have been few in number, but they offer sufficient proof that everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of the human freedoms - to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way." ~Victor Frankel ~ It really is a choice and the only person that can make it is you.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
The Power of Intention and Manifestation
It's amazing to think how far I have come in just one short year. A year ago I would never have thought that I would be a Reiki Master with a beautiful office to work in. That my friends, Jen and Julie, and I could have pulled together such an awesome shop. There is so much to be said for manifestation! Was it just this past August that the idea was born? It just seemed that it would be a really good plan to combine our resources and find the perfect place to rent. One that we could all have what we needed for our individual interests.
We talked about it and then one day we just decided to "walk downtown" and see if there might be any shops for rent that would cover our needs. We had meditated prior to this and had a focus on what we felt we could afford in rent and off we went. We found it! The shop is right next to a small park. The rent is what we had decided we could afford and it is perfect for all of our needs. A gift from the Universe just waiting for us to claim.
After a very busy month in October, cleaning and building (we needed to set up office space for Julie and I upstairs) we finally are ready to go this month. The energy within this shop is amazing! It is a healing experience just to walk through the door. I don't go to my office, I come home.
A small dream that was voiced just this past August and it was delivered in a way that none of us could have ever expected. The intention was sent out to the Universe and the Universe delivered. It couldn't have been better had we sat and drawn up plans and handed it to the Universe to build for us.
Never underestimate the power of intention and manifestation.
We talked about it and then one day we just decided to "walk downtown" and see if there might be any shops for rent that would cover our needs. We had meditated prior to this and had a focus on what we felt we could afford in rent and off we went. We found it! The shop is right next to a small park. The rent is what we had decided we could afford and it is perfect for all of our needs. A gift from the Universe just waiting for us to claim.
After a very busy month in October, cleaning and building (we needed to set up office space for Julie and I upstairs) we finally are ready to go this month. The energy within this shop is amazing! It is a healing experience just to walk through the door. I don't go to my office, I come home.
A small dream that was voiced just this past August and it was delivered in a way that none of us could have ever expected. The intention was sent out to the Universe and the Universe delivered. It couldn't have been better had we sat and drawn up plans and handed it to the Universe to build for us.
Never underestimate the power of intention and manifestation.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Welcome!
Welcome to my blog! This is so exciting for me, my very first entry. I must admit that I have started on a journey that I didn't expect to be taking, but it has been so amazing for me. It would seem that the Universe has been steering me in this direction for some time now and finally all of the pieces have fallen into place (or most of them anyway).
When my younger sister suggested some years back that I would be good at Reiki, I had no idea what it even was! I did some research and looked into it, but the timing wasn't right and I didn't take the classes then. I still had some learning to do, some accepting of myself and finding my own strength prior to moving forward.
It has been a journey. I have Multiple Sclerosis and I believe that it has also been part of what has brought me to this point in my life. I have seen some very low points in my past, dealing with this "situation" as I refuse to look at MS as a disease or anything else that might identify me. It is something that is part of me and I deal with it, it does not define me.
I have reached a level of Usui Reiki Master and discovered a life that has meaning for me. I am continuing to learn, almost constantly, as there is so much out there to discover. I am taking Practical Reiki and Chios Energy Healing. I am attending classes in Metaphysics and I feel as though I am a sponge that is soaking up every little thing that is out there. The surprising thing to me is that I am retaining it all!
The Journey is one of wonder. The paths are many and the people that I have come in contact with along the way are teachers of all levels, personal, educational, and spiritual.
When my younger sister suggested some years back that I would be good at Reiki, I had no idea what it even was! I did some research and looked into it, but the timing wasn't right and I didn't take the classes then. I still had some learning to do, some accepting of myself and finding my own strength prior to moving forward.
It has been a journey. I have Multiple Sclerosis and I believe that it has also been part of what has brought me to this point in my life. I have seen some very low points in my past, dealing with this "situation" as I refuse to look at MS as a disease or anything else that might identify me. It is something that is part of me and I deal with it, it does not define me.
I have reached a level of Usui Reiki Master and discovered a life that has meaning for me. I am continuing to learn, almost constantly, as there is so much out there to discover. I am taking Practical Reiki and Chios Energy Healing. I am attending classes in Metaphysics and I feel as though I am a sponge that is soaking up every little thing that is out there. The surprising thing to me is that I am retaining it all!
The Journey is one of wonder. The paths are many and the people that I have come in contact with along the way are teachers of all levels, personal, educational, and spiritual.
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