Fear is a Learned Behavior

I wrote in an earlier blog of my fear of the unknown in the spiritual world. I am fine with seeing people that have passed on, spiritual beings that want to help, and the Angels when I am meditating or giving Reiki treatment. At other times I wrote that I am afraid that they might actually appear before me! I have had a few close encounters lately and I’m working through them.

My girlfriends and I had decided that I must have had some type of encounter in my younger years that has caused a blockage for me in this area. I no longer think that this is the case. During the past few days I have heard a message no less than three different times. That message is that fear is a learned behavior. The message has come from different sources, but it is always the same message. The Angels are very good at sending messages if you are paying attention.

Upon thinking about this, I have realized that I did learn this behavior. My Dad has told stories all of my life about different spirit encounters within his/my family. They have always been told in a manner of a scary bedtime story, not in a way that would instill a sense that this was a normal happening. I can clearly remember one such encounter as I lay in bed and listened to the steady footsteps coming up our stairs and I kept thinking over and over that whatever it was, please go into my sister’s bedroom rather than mine! The footsteps did go into her bedroom and I will never forget the look in her face when she walked into my room about 15 minutes later and told me what happened. She was white with fear and I slept with a night light for the next five years. She insists now that it was a bad dream, but unless I was part of that bad dream, it was a very real encounter.

So, my fear is a behavior that I have learned. There have been a few things that have come to light in the last few days about what I fear in meeting in the Center. It is interesting to note that I have been unable to get into the Center since these things have been revealed to me due to a snowstorm that we are having. Do I think that the snow was created just for me to have time to deal with this fear? No, I don’t think that I have that much power, but I do believe that the timing of everything was set to coincide with the storm so that I have time to work through this fear before I next go to the Center.

A learned behavior can be unlearned. I have the best possible help with the unlearning of things. I have been reminded daily, several times a day that I am not alone. Archangel Michael is always with me. I have asked for guidance and help and he is there to do that. He has made a personal appearance, standing beside my bed and I knew that he was there as I saw him. I had no fear. My poor dogs on the other hand were beside themselves as they couldn’t get to me due to the gate that keeps them in the dining room area.

I am working on this fear thing and I believe that it will be at a much better level by the time the snow dissipates enough to go back into the Center. I can not move forward with where I need to be, until I unlearn a behavior. I fully intend to do that.

Is it a Coincidence??

I am not sure that I believe in coincidences. There are too many times that things happen and in hindsight you can see the path that leads up to you being in the right place at the right time for them to occur. I think that there are times that an opportunity presents itself, but where it leads depends upon the choices that you make at that time. Free will comes into play, and if you make a choice that leads you in a direction other than the one that would be most optimal for you, sometimes you take a very long detour before that particular choice comes up again. Make no mistake though, I believe that there are certain things that we are meant to do and situations keep coming up that help point us to the path we should be taking.

If we keep using our free will to make choices that aren’t exactly in keeping with our life purpose, we just keep making these detours and it can become a vicious cycle until we finally make the choice that leads us in the direction of our agreed upon  path.

Do I think that it’s a coincidence that when I am directed by Archangel Michael to seek out Connie Dohan’s help with a situation, that she should suddenly start offering an overnight retreat at her house?? No, I don’t. The night that I first saw Connie’s new class, I had a dream of an airplane. I had the same dream the next night. Then, during meditation with Jen, I saw the airplane again. I knew that I was supposed to be going to Connie’s home for this retreat. I talked with my sister and she is excited for me to be there to see her. It is not a coincidence that she and Connie live in the same town. I talked with my husband and he gave the green light to sign up, which was amazing. I do believe that I am headed Connie’s way in March.

When I pay attention to the things around me, I seem to make the choices that lead me in the right direction. I continue on my journey with no interruptions and the path is clear. The things that I need appear as I need them and am ready for them. I had to smile at that as it would seem that I am being pushed just a bit for something that I might never have been ready for. It seems that has been taken from my hands and I will learn to accept what is. I have been given several tools to help with that adjustment and I think that they are helping.

The other day while in the Center, Archangel Michael left me a feather. It was in a spot that I’ve never been in the center, but I know that it was left for me to find. I know that he is with me and that this was left to remind me of that and to also remind me that I am always safe.

My journey continues with some new and interesting twists to it. Where this twist will lead I have no idea, but I am pretty sure that it will not be boring. My best advice to you is to watch for the signs, don’t question them, but follow your instincts. When you chose the road that allows you to continue in a circle, you will never grow and your potential will never be met. It isn’t always comfortable, making the choice to take the road that is open in front of you, but it will never be boring!